well today I had a really ok day at work.
I contemplated many things. Like eating chocolate.
I just made a healthy stir fry. and I am sitting in Tamaras kitchen with dog, whom she keeps leaving me with.
I just did Lisas lashes, and we talked about spiritual stuff, so I read her energy.
I saw a man horse thing, whatever they are. She said they symbolize sex. Then I saw her working in shipping and receiving, then I saw her healing her own chakras. especially her heart chakra. It was a little blocked. Then I saw a british man talking to her, and getting her excited to dress up for the wedding she is going to. I saw her getting dressed up to attend a few fancy parties.
I like how when I read things people deny it at first. Like I asked her if she had a fancy party coming up like something she was going to with her husband that she was dressing up for. and she said no. then I asked if she was going to something like a wedding and she said yes. Like isn't that the same thing?
wtf. then I said I saw her applying for this shipping recieveing job and she acted oblivious. Then she said, oh at work her manager asked her where she would like to move to and she told him she saw herself in a certain job there, which was shipping and reciving. because that is not what she does now . Then she said she just recently applied to it.
I thought maybe it was with her husbands company, because I saw a guy she knew giving her the job.
Then I saw her with an old dressing table she used to own and it had jewellery on it. and she said she just got her old dresser shipped to her, and it makes her feel like home.
I saw doterra, or some jewellery natural oil remedy something.
Then she told me that her other lash girl had a better table than mine, And she worked at suncore and did lashes, and like to travel to places like mount killiminjaro, and she was really interesting.
I felt like she was comparing me to her, and I wasn't nearly doing as well.
And she sort of moved around impatiently asking if I was done yet.
We will walk dogs together tomorrow.
She invisioned me with a baby again, and the J name sticks.
she saw monkey with squierrels and the new place I will be moving into soon.
I said I was stressd out abot the road trip im planning with Joy. And that I probably shouldn't go. and she sort of agreed.
But said we didn't have to go for that long.
Last night Thomas and I kissed. I am very attracted to him. and I don't know why he kissed me. I shyed my head away about ten times, but he was very persistant. I was definetly enjoying his company. And he keot doing things like try to cuddle me and rub my feet.
I think he is lonely. I think I am too. and as much as I wanted to really pationately kiss him. I had to hold back. since we were engaged once and he cheated on me and broke my heart. Now he is in a relationship, and kissing me. I feel like I karma cheated on myself ?
It was weird and felt wrong. its been like 2 years since we have kinda kissed. except one day I was wasted wasty pants and called him to pick me up. I remember about 1 minute of dinner at boston pizza, then he drove me home. But he told me we drove to a park and made out.
I didn't remember but I sort of kind of thought I dreamt it. then I was mad.. because he was sober and I was wasted. black out wated. how could a sober person make out with a black out wsted drunkie?
He said I was co herent and it was different.
he said I was all over him telling him I wish things had worked out and we could still be together.
It seems to fit together now in my mind. And I find it strange how we are still friensd.
I would have to say I still love him. but he is angry crazy, and a cheater.
I read his aura, and these blue aliens from the future can see trhough his energy. they live on this planet 120 light years away. and they are telepathic. He is part of their society. its like a blueish grey place where all the people are intellectual and the moon is always a crecent.
its dark there and its mostly men. They are very smart, like engineers. They walk in busy streets together and study planets in the past through telecomunicaton.
I assume he lives there in the future, so they can tap into his energy.
I constantly repeated the phrase I am crazy. during his session because it sounds like something out of a movie.
except he descriped the blue aliens, with long fingers and albino presense to me, and it was bang on with my vision. he said they abducted him and he has a scar.
I sad no the scar was from your past life, you died early in a car accident. it was to remind you to be more careful.
the aliens are sort of directing him. and they helped with the scar. he also saw them when he was born.
they don't fall in love on that planet, but they remember what it was like.
I also saw him making tons of money. there was a pile of gold lit up, and hes just trying to make his way to it.
he has lots of good energy but is ADD his mind was in 4 places at once, and he didn't have a proper home. and there is something strange about this relationship he is in.
Im not sure if hes hiding it, or they broke up. or he can block her. or if they are on a break but still hai lf together.
shes there but distant.
cant figure it out.
I went to phoenix gym last night. it was wonderful.

BTW I had a vision about the guys house I went in with destiny to do the photography things.
he is going to meet me at the party next week, but he is a huge player. I saw a ring of girls sort of pimping themselves out through these types of guys. that he is.
He had like a 2 million$ home.
decorated so Pimp I thought I was in a movie.
except he hold oil paint and art work. and magnets from his trips.
anyways, I saw the girls he bounces with, and it was creepy. I cant believe how filthy that sex ring type stuff is. Like girls being escorts. its sad, because they lour them in with gifts and clothes, then exploit them sexually and are on to the next. then the girls jump from guy to guy, hoping to be good enough for them.
its sick. But I cant stop thinking about how fucking beautiful that house was. and how I would totally have sex in that house. JK
haha hopefully.
anyways, he must be an energy person, because I kept thinking about his party next week and how I was curious if I would go or not.
I don't want to drink.. its been like two weeks now since I have gotten drunk <3 yeay for me...!!!!