your the enemy

blah blah blah

i had a boring day, but i cleaned so much my room and paint desk is cleaned, so i can get painting again, Im also going to take my sewing machine out of the cubord and hopefully find a place to set it up. and use it. dammnit i will use it.

so i feel skinny, i lost 4-5 pounds this week, i worked out more than usual and went on a big walk everyday, and i havent eaten any candy. im so addicted to that crazy stuff. lately ive been getting angry because i havent been able to lose weight becuase i eat so much. mmmmm i love food but i hate it. its such a lazy thing to do. eat and eat and eat.

?? what ami talking about .

meh. meh. im listing to a good tape right now, it has weird jungle music.

its fun. just like bowling. i need a boy toy, its depressing not feeling wanted. or its just depressing not having a good job. thats bugging me alot. i have to work tomrorw morning and i dont want to do anything tonight becuase im sad about working tormorrow. thats just gaytarted. im not sure exactly who to go out with, Lindsay Aaron and sara are my picks but i dont think they are up for fitzys i think they are getting sick of it, or just dont like it. i think being regular somewhere just makes it fun becuase i know im going to see certain people who i want to see. although we never have anything exciting to do but sit and stare at everyone and get drunker. which gets fun. i wish i was a guy, and i was my brothers age and i was out ruccosing. they bought a giant water gun and they are going to spray strangers with it. that sounds cool. Id love to go skating right now to, but my skate is in the van which my bro stole for the night. poo.

so im sitting alone in my bedroom staring at the wall.

i think there should be good concerts comming to town good ones