2014-11-04 / / / / name of the game

today I had an incredible meditation and reiki session. I woke up and placed my hands on my third eye chakra and played magical flute reiki music. I went on a vision. It started about a few hundred years ago on a farm house with a girl who could have been me. who lived alone with a man, he raped her all the time. and he was a miserable angry gross farmer man. The girl was magical and sometimes drew little pictures on a notebook she was in love with. she craved more beauty and imagination. He didnt speak with her, and she became mute. and sort of dumb. a little crazy, and pretended to have a baby. Then a young handsome man came to her at the farm house and made love to her in the hay. he touched her and caressed her, made her feel warm and loved. She then came to have her own little farm house, where she made cute little flower head bands and lived alone in a nesteled little house. She was lonely in the house and didn't do much. but craved the attention from the young very handsome man. his eyes were sparkily and she couldn't get enough of him. He would come and go from her life, and she slowly craved that love she felt from him but in other ways. She wanted to to draw and craft and examine beautiful things. but he was all she really needed when he was around, and she took care of him. Then one day he stopped coming to her and he met a wealthy women in the city. They got married and he became wealthy and didn't visit the girl in the woods. She got restess angry sad and frusterated so she left her cosy home in the woods to work in shoe store in the city it was like a leather shoe maker and she also polished shoes. she saw him come into the city with his wife and she caught his eye. he came to the shoe store to make love to her, but he had changed. She craved his attention and then found herself dancing at the bar as a stripper. he would come and stare at her and she would try hard to seduce him, but he was now with his wife. She became depressed and left the city and became a prositiute on the streets, lving with other somewhat homelss people. they put there money together to work on things together like art projects or building wagons. she had contracted lots of stds by now and was miserable an unhealthy. One day a lady in a carriage came by and rescued her. She grabbed the poor girl and healed her with her essential oils, plants, feathers, smoke and rituals. she had trinkets and drawings pictures of animals and wiccan things. She offered the girl a job to work for one of the wealthy men it town. she was to be his healer and muse. She moved in with the well educated man and helped heal him with the potions and herbs the lady had taught her how to use. He worked a lot and read lots of books and was inventing numbers and math. she didn't understand what he did, but she tried to help him because she loved that he was so smart. she admired his beautiful knowledge. He started to become less sexually attracted to the girl, and she sooon became his maid and farmed and gardened and cleaned as he moved a new women in. The lady came back to the house to check on her and was mad that she had become the maid. She taught her about energy and that she has lots, and there is no need to care for this man. she has greater powers then that. She brought her to another wealthy mans house where he was working on inventing cars. He showed her his dangerous invetions which caused an adrenaline rush. she loved it. It opened up her energy and she began to paint and creative and laugh with this man. He was crazy and vibrant and fearless. He asked why she didn't have kids, she said she did. He went back to her village and took her kids to be his own. They lived happy together and reckless. Her son got killed in one of his car accidents and he became very depressed, her daughter was disconnected from her. The witch lady came back to check on her, but had to show the girl that she was infact sick and needed someone to carry on her work. The girl agreed to help. She left the man and he daughter and learned everything she could about the natural world, being a gypsy, travelling, and helping all the poor women she could find. She introduced her to another girl she had helped and they remained friends and she offered to help her get the womans healing going. They worked together but the other girl was still hung up on men. And the old women and showed her that she didn't need a man. Just a strong connection to the creative natural world and all it had to offer. She said her need for love would be fulfilled by helping other girls like herself. She began her journey now as a healer to find women and set them free. Connect them to the mother earth where all beauty love and creation lies.
Her love for the arts, wiccan, pegan, witchcraft healing, painting, drawing, and knowledge consumed her life. and she carried on helping other women like herself find their true path towards enlightenment

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