2007-10-02 / / / / bling bling

So Im keepin it real, I dont know if the guys i meet should be friends, or more than that?
I fear dating, but what about randoms? is that better then falling in Love?
Im so confused. Im nervous about work, but i like it. Its just hard work.. it really is.
My life is so weird., when i get drunk i say the most random things to people. what is wrong with me?! I need to see a therapist soon, and rid myself of my self.
bar attack is ok, but its seriously alot of bar. I still need to visit some people, but i am getting comfy with my routine already of doing nothing!
I want to goto georgian in jan, and do a painting course, i think that would be good, and I want to volunteer for something once i get my shit together.
I cant wait to save money, thats all im doing here.
I cant wait to save alot, and goto Australlia, i have no commitments other wise, so i seriously am going to do it!
Im so excited, by this time next year I will be there, and it will be summer..
I wish I could fast forward my life until then!
like that movie..... but then i will end up fat and uhappy. so i guess i will try to make the most of my time here trying to save money. I just wish it didnt take so long.
living at home is so cheap if you do it right!
I still have the tips I made on Sat! well I also won 80$ at the casino! which is scary, becuase i dont want to go back! i will never win again..!
oh addictions.
I hate smelling like smoke, why did I ever start?
Hmm I hate my outfit today, I think im going to change once more before work.
Just to be extra happy.. all day long
wooo 12-9 long shift,,. i hope it goes ok. maybe I shold just work at honda?! lol
mmmm money, i love it

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