blah. today i feel fat, and un acomplished. i went looking for a job but i applied to places like subway.. oh god i dont want to work at subway! i want to make jewllery or be an artist, or design sets for movies. life is lame. when do i get to own my own business? when do i get to be a rockstar? when do i get to enjoy things.

i guess i enjoy the simpleness of my life but its to lame. way to laame. ahh

tonight im gong to drive around with malcolm to find a work out gym, then were going to the movies, hes never gone to a movie with a girl bfore! awe firsttimers are soo cute. i really wish i was smart and had more brain power, and i wasnt so lazy. i need to express beauty from the earth but its hard

life is lame crytsal sucks.