hey diary

whats up?

its monday! ah today someones cell phone kept calling the house and waking me up! im so angry, it started around 830 i think ive gotten about 5 calls! ah!! its funny because i can hear stuff in the backround, like someone eating or people talking, im pretty sure its one of dans friends beucase the people sound like high school kids..

ah!

well this morning i painted my water colour painting, i started it about a year ago and decided it had way to much detail i would do it over a period of time so i wouldnt go crazy, and i forgot about it! i enlarged hthe picture and printed it in black and white and again in colour to get closer more actuarte detail of all the shading and stuff, i felt like that commercial, where the girl scans the photo of that place on her nifty handy dandy computer then prints a perfect quality jumbo picture of it and makes a bit collage of paris or something, except my picture wasnt of paris and it wasnt a collage, and the colour is a bit blurry becuas its so big.

so im slowly getting finished that painting i hope to have it done for christmas. i have to goto school soon to pick up prjects i handed in.. im scared becusae if i failed any of them i most likely failed the class. but i was impresed with what i handed in so i hope i get goood marks..

yep im also going to drive around and find some good places to hire me. i hate jobs i wish i was self sufeciant, or self employed. that would be ggggreat! i havent worked at the video store much lately and they highered another person which makes about 6 part time workers to cover 50hrs a week,. or even less! the two owners work every day 11-4 or 11-6 except for weekends they like to have friday nite and saturday nite off. which is the shifts we all get stuck working the busy ones.. but its money and an easy job and they will never fire me becuase ive been there so long.. i guess now that im free i told him i could work whenever so i hope they give me hours dammit.. unless i find another job then i will tell them to goto hell hahhahaha

i hated last night, i fell asleep around 11? still in my clothes and i kept waking up every hour and my light was on to but i was to tierd to get up and change into pjs or turn to the light off, until about 5 am i got up and changed and turned off the light and i was awake! and i couldnt stop thinking of scary things like being blown to pieces or becomming an ampuety.. and i had scary dreams about that to.. or part of my face got burnt off.. it made the night even more uncomfortable and disturbing...

and then when i was in and out of dream land around 8 am the damn phone kept ringing!!!A HHHHHH!!! there it gose agaun..,.

that was cat thank god it wasnt that cell phone..

cat wants me to goto the big wig show with her.. oh boy. im kinda getting bored of shows, there all the same.. but theres not much else to do. well arent i jolly today.... ahhhh i dont like this one bit.

its crawling small and un concidertate

scratching its nails down the spine of someones dead back.. its whiskers are yellow and poisened with urine, a smell that distinguishes the healthy from the sick.. its desease.. and its comming to wipe out your race.. its desease and its feeding off you in discrace. it walks with four feet so close the ground and sneezing a chewing it makes quiet sounds. bleeding from feeding on your arms when they rot. its eyes are black like coal and you cant trust its smile. fast like a monster that breaths down your back its waiting to eat you and lay babies in your ears mmmm babies..