Hi diary

how are you today?

well i belive in my earlier log in this diary i talked a bit about mickey

and stuff, and who arrived shortly after to suprise me? yes.. it was him

he came over with exciting news! he found people in Barrie who sell monkeys! he made me call them because he was to scared. the person is getting some monkeys together for us to go see on saturday! im so excited, mickey has about 4000$ saved and thats the price of one of the monkeys, mickey is crazy and i think he really wants to buy one, we always talked about getting a monkey, i dont have any money right now or i would buy one to! well probably not becuase they are alot of work. i dont know how he thinks hes going to take care of it! but if he gets one i will babysit it!

in barrie there is a law taht you cant have a monkey unless its for eductaional purpose, but the man who sells them said he doesnt make sure you have a permit for it but it is good to ask anyways..

yep it was nice seeing mickey. but like i said in my last entry i kinda wish he was either in my life fully or far away... well not far away.. its nice being friends its a whole different level. we threw oranges off my from porch to see who could make theres explode more. yeah... im a loser

anyways today was an ok day I went to class did my work then i went to the gym, i bought another gym pass one to the school it was 20$ and thats good for a whole semester i was lazy, i shuld have bought it months ago. but we went and did a polarity strecth thing, it was kinda like yoga and kinda like an ab workout.

now i am home. back to my life

today in class i tried doing reiki on some people, Maija had interesting wavy round energy, i could feel things from her mind like, an urge to ask lots of questions and the issues she has confronting herself with stuff, like how she feels or something, there was kind of a weird gap in her energy, but she had a really healthy one it was very peacefull very very peacefull

im not sure but i felt like a mom or someone she had grown distant with was filled with pink and light blue energy that she uses. yep thats maija.. i would like to do an aura read on her becuase i dont really know her that well and she seemed like she had some doors she wanted me to look through.

anywyas i then read melissas aura, or felt her energy whatever, and hers was alot different, i felt like she was very aware of energy and she knew it was all around her. she uses her energy to grow as her personality, it was very strong, she was very up and down and i saw her being near trees and screaming and the image or shape of lighting or something fierce was around her, it was kinda hard explaining it to her exactly.

sometimes when i explain things to people im waiting just to hear there connection and that intersting, like if i see something and they describe what im seeing it goes to more levels its really ineresting. anyways im not sure if its good mixing reiki into it, im pretty sure it is reiki is good for everyone, i know some people think you can steal energy from people, one day i was doing reiki on a friend just plain reiki and both of our arms started to hurt, my mind had drifted off to things in my life and i guess i had reversed sometihng it was weird.! but usually i focus just on vibrations i feel in my hands and stuff

i wish i could do more reiki but sometimes i feel weird becasue i dont know if i belive in it myslef sometimes i like reasurance from people. yes so now what?

i think im going to paint! yeay that would be good

awe lindsay left me a note. wow i am kinda distant from lindsay right now. that kinda sucks shes the only lindsay in the world i dont really know any people like her, well excpet for kinda cat but not really at all.

my feet take me to a house

where i take off my shoes.

we live under the stars the thought dreams through my mind. i look up and all i see is a ceiling. what person decided to make the stars only visible at night? with no one occupying the house it had become cold

the sun was gone and the air was dry.

to many dark corners were creeping around enjoying the strange company.

one let its breath escape to drip to the floor. melting walls took down monsters and evil spirits and a warm moon raised the level of chattering.

one women was standing naked around a fire. all around were shivering shadows. i must stop the music... my hands grabbed the ladys throat but the music wasnt comming from her. it was comming from the river. a small river had started to grow under the stairway.

i threw the lady in the water. make it stop i shouted. she grabbed the shadows, the stars and the moon and flew away. everything lit up and there was silence, the room became warm and i was aware of the other people here. they were standing behind me. we dont like the stars. only the sun they said.. thank you for scaring our nutty grandma away we were scared she would eat all the peanut butter.